unFathomable Envisagement,Imperfectly Perfect

Alright. The one week of study week has started. I thought there will be time to finish what we're supposed to study since we have gone through the many CAs. However, this does not seem so..half of the CAs we've studied will not be tested in FINALS. Plus, the stack of notes that we have to study is just DIFFICULT to complete given only one week. Well, maybe it isn't impossible to complete, just DIFFICULT. ( yes, this is true if my speed is reduced .) gimme a break, after the 3 weeks of non-stop torture, a normal sentient human being would feel tired, exhausted, and requires a rest. Please agree with me.... >. BTW, for my 6 wks preceptorship, I am posted to: Well, Jean and Suyin got UNITY. I've heard many not-so-good stuff about guardian ..but anyway, i believe different retail pharmacies have their own strengths and weaknesses. My preceptor is a Ms. , and according to the SPB website, she graduated in 2003, registered in 2005. Hence, she's only about 4-5 yrs my s...

Ok this doesn't sound as 'glamorous ' as the title suggest. Yes. It is near the exams in NUS. and many ppl are falling sick. I have not officially falled sick. Minor symptoms here and there. This time, it's the eye allergy problem. I used to have skin allergies eg. Eczema. Well, the trend has changed. Anyway, I realised I have been keeping different types of medications (perhaps not enough to open a mini pharmacy lah, but enough to fit into a ... First Aid Kit maybe? lolz. with more of the oral medications though. FYI: (What i obtained from wf's room. - There are antidepressants, antiemetics, antiflatulence etc.) ( From my room. There are steroids, supplements, antifungal, antiseptics etc.) ps: could you see the Prefrin box? Guess what it contains? ( Phenylephrine HCl, Benzalkonium chloride) For a moment I thought Phenylephrine HCl is an alpha adrenergic drug - a decongestant for flu. Perhaps it works the same in the eye by constricting blood vessels in the eye to r...

Stress. How do you compare stress among one another? It's too subjective in one person and in another..how do you measure stress? You can't measure stress like any other disease states for example blood glucose measure by using glucometer etc. to decide if your blood glucose is higher /lower than another person. So, like happiness, how do measure stress? It is no use complaining to another person who stressful you are simply because you're not the only person feeling so. And how do you know that you are MORE stressful than the other person? Just because you THINK that you are stress doesn't mean that the other person is least stressed compared to you. zzz. Hence, what can you do when you're stressed out? I think I would just let it linger for awhile, and then dismiss it for awhile, and let it linger again, and dismiss again, and hopefully it will get dismissed for a longer period of time. I don't want to start counting how many CAs I have left before finals . Al...

Everytime when I feel like blogging I will hessitate to blog. And hessitations thus hindered me from blogging. Hrm. Sounds familiar. * reliving familiar thoughts* ' Everytime when I feel like studying I will hessitate to study. And hessitations hindered me from STUDYING'. ok, now i realise i'm not only lazy in studying, I'm also lazy in blogging..what has gone wrong with me? I used to blog quite frequent during my college years. Now, when I click ' sign in' in my blogspot, and 'new post', from a moment I will go blank staring at the blank template in front of me. Has NUS shut down all my creative juices? Those creative juices I once have ..sufficient to allow me to crap and blabber about certain issues or dissatisfaction in life. Even poems that I could come up easily to convey my feelings.. I just returned 'home' from a movie called 'Vantage Point'. Genius plot i would say. Makes you think. Nice. Ok out of nowhere the 2 lines above came ...

No words can express how I feel RIGHT NOW. It is not exactly frustration, not very likely to be sadness, not really stress, not exactly depressed, not very happy either. Perhaps I am apprehensive. It is mid-term holidays for goodness sake! and guess what? I have practically spent my 4 days STUDYING from dawn till night. I've been facing the laptop for a minimum of 12 hours a day? yes. I am going blind. What have I done since Sunday? hrm. 2 prac reports - microbio and pharm analysis. completed rough read through of my 38 drug monographs ( mind you, I don't remember a thing! maybe just their names and DON'T ASK ME WHAT THEY ARE FOR! swt. -_-) completed Self- Directed Learning component - don't know why it is still over the word limit despite numerous attempts to cut cut and CUT! ish and two rounds of CCA entering ( this is the blinding part which I had to be glued to the screen the whole time until I complete one part of it) The moral of the lesson is: Don't ever be a...

First of all, I've just gotta wish everyone a Happy Chinese New YEar.. Most importantly , for those in NUS, wish you guys success and to lead a healthy and balanced life. I know we all need the blessings to survive in Spore.heee.. Nothing special during CNY, except for visitings and angpaus...ohyea, I fell sick today, not exactly sick, it's just the fact that I consumed some 'unknown' unhygienic food which caused me diarrhoea. Couldn't sleep the entire night, had 3-4 bottles of pil chi kit teck aun, and parents had to sell off my RM 90 ROYAL VIP bus ticket back to Sg. for RM 50 . Hence, I'll be carpooling with my Aunt and Uncle to Sg tomorrow evening, which means, I'm gona reach NUS late, and plans to do some sort of 'revision' and planning for the rest of the sem has failed. =( I'm sooo far behind studies. I've neglected much of my duties as a student. SKipped one lecture, and one practical session...and most of the time lost in lectures. Fu...

It's Sunday soon, and Monday will come.. Everything will revert back to stress. I am living in self denial. I am living in my blissful dreams But when it's time to wake, I reluctantly , like a kid, dread to open my eyes. I have certainly no idea what has weaken me, what has weaken my strengths I used to have, the things that were once within my control goes out of control every now and then. Why is it that I find it hard to grasp reality? Why is it that I find it difficult to accept the truth? Indeed, you have to keep reminding yourself the life you have is no use if you do not make living it worthwhile. Yet sometimes, just sometimes, it gets terribly awful and bitter and numb. It is terrible to be in a conflict where resolution lies within you and yourself and nobody else. In the end, is winning really that important? In the end, is happiness really that important? In the end, the fact is You will still perish from the face of the earth. Happiness is only an excuse, success, b...