unFathomable Envisagement,Imperfectly Perfect

eee...apa ni? (caped stalkers flying through a pagoda forest, Blue Moon planet, according to National Geographic) After reading an old book by Sidney Sheldon , titled the Doomsday Conspiracy , my mind started to wander off into SPACE! Another recent influence : Fantastic Four! wakaka... Do you believe in ALIENS from another planet? I wasn't very into the topic although there had been much discussions over the scientific areas of research into space until a fiction book actually brought me into thinking. Yes, the story is fiction, but what amazed me was the author's note about his encounter with the many real life scientists and astronauts. He wrote: "The eminent Carl Sagan has estimated that our Milky Way galaxy alone may contain 250billion stars. About a million of these,he believes, may have planets capable of supporting some form of civilization." Come to think of it, it does make sense, doesn't it? Imagine yourself taken away from planet Earth. Earth itsel...

Been thinking alot lately..and I mean it..a LOT! What about? Random stuff..life, studies, relationships, health, future... Life, I've mentioned once in my blog. All the little things make up life. Studies,relationships, health all revolves around LIFE. Studies. For now, I want to strive. I haven't been terribly depressed in all my life about my studies and results. And I'm hanging on..to tell myself failure is not the end of the world. I just got to BREATHE. I yearn to give my best. And in hope not to fly high, instead to achieve improvements, step by step, learning by doing. In University, studies go hand-in-hand with activities. Responsibilities. Yet for me, when I have studies, I can't seem to handle activities & vice versa. I hate it. When I have my social life, I sacrifice my studies. How in world can I achieve a balance in both? After reading Mitch Albom's Five People You Meet In heaven, I learn that in life, there is always sacrifice. Whether you sacrific...

You Inner Gender is Female You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you. You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations. You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves. You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female. What's Your Inner Gender? I am FEMALE...DUH!! Your Worry Factor is 65% The amount you worry is definitely borderline unhealthy. Even when things are going well, you find yourself fixating on the negatives. Try to remember the times you've been able to let your worries go. If you can do that again, you'll be much happier! Do You Worry Too Much? OK, this sounds quite true to me..XD Your Birthdate: January 13 You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking. However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone. Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it...

~ Happy Fathers' Day~ While clearing off some junk at home, I found a book that belonged to every hardest moment I had during the bad times. A book where all my poems were written. Each and every word carried a meaning. A feeling so nascent once again that it was hard to believe the years have gone by relentlessly fast. Two poems that are still vividly written I would like to pen them down here FRIENDSHIP Painting a portrait of everlasting friendship Isn't exactly as simple as painting an art on paper For bonds of friendship never fades Like colours do however fine an art on paper. It’s great meeting up with BBGSians once again.In Vi.O.o (L-R: AiLeng,MeiMay,ChengKuan,FengEe,MeiLee) I REMEMBER... I remember How your hands slipped deftly into mine for the first time How your intimidating eyes captured mine How your sincere arms wrapped around my waist I remember How you deliver what I want to hear from you How you send shivers down my spine whenever I hear your voice How it stil...

I am feeling a sudden weirdness, a sudden moodiness, like a black cloud enveloping me. Heck, am I falling sick? Sometimes I think I’m such a weakling. How on earth can I then be strong? Strong enough to defend my yearns, my rights, my future, my doings and sayings? This is getting on my nerves; do people actually change with time? A lot I’ve seen and met over the years have. In fact, majority have. In what sense? More mature? More attitude? More style? More class? More intellectual? Perhaps. When I look at myself and I, I am still the old me. Darn, I feel old. Please just don’t remind me . Yet, I want to be like a kid once again. I am adult? No, I don’t want to be an adult. I dread adulthood. When you’re an adult, you have massive responsibilities to carry, or already on your shoulders dragging you down to osteoporosis. Bleh. People, normal people always don’t look normal. To me, everyone is abnormal. Abnormal towards the superextraordinary side. To be precise, superhuman.Haha. Why? Na...

It has been a really boring life at home. Got a job as a promoter at first. Worked nearly 10 hours. Came back with sore toes and feet. And I told myself, no, I won't want to work as a promoter anymore unless the pay is worth my paining feet. Met up with penang-ians who came down for 3 days. But I only managed to join them for a day at John's house. BBQ. Sleptover and went for Bukit Raja's Bak Kut Teh instead of Klang Bak Kut Teh..aiseh..was darn salty ler..not as yummy as I expected. Took a long long ride to reach there..sob..my first time sleeping in the train..serious! I fell asleep. Went for Peter Baartman's concert which intended to promote the new Clavinova . NiCE. Love the Clavinova. Beautiful sounds. At that moment, my mind started to wander. "When I grow up (duh, when I have $$$) in future, I want to own a house with a room designated for music instruments ONLY. Yes. I want a sound proof music room with a black grand piano, guitar, drumset,Clavinova,violins...

I don't hear noise I don't see people I am afraid, loneliness sees me How should I let go this sense of uneasiness? The only person I wish to see now is you My only comfort I seek is you It is you who is able to take my fear and insecurities far away Never even allowing it a single chance to stay I am still afraid Like a small child trapped in darkness How am I to get rid of the trait? I just wished you were here, Calmness