3 days out of a one month's break. Feels good. Yet felt like I should be doing more. I have no idea. I hope to keep searching for my passion and what I do best. I fear. I fear when I officially commence work as a pharmacist I would not perform according to expectations. Yet i know i have to give my best..I always let myself down but it is not without effort. I shall console myself whenever I can that I've given my best. I wished there is more to life than just work alone. There is an emptiness I couldn't figure out what is missing. I guess it's the drive to live. A purpose that will keep me going instead of living just for the weekends. I should fail more. I should be happy failing and most importantly I have to be hard on the outside. Whatever it is, I need a hard, tough core. Gosh, this is tough.
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It is the 13th March 2011. 3 months and 13 days passed since the year 2011 ushered in. And my training is coming to an end. Fast? not really. The days were slow. Nearly everyday is a torture. What is more torturing is what I am to expect next. I still couldn't find my raison d'etre. I still couldn't find happiness and passion in the things I'm doing. I still couldn't find my niche and confidence that could give me a reason for not being super lost every single day. What should I do? If I pass...what should I do? If I fail...where should I go? Japan...another disaster..earthquake, tsunami.. what's next. When you think or imagine being in such a situation, I doubt money, security or stressful nature of jobs will even matter to you anymore..what you will think of is just being able to go home safely to family, friends and loved ones. Can I do something that will help me keep track of how precious time is? Can I do something that will make me cherish every living mo...