unFathomable Envisagement,Imperfectly Perfect

Everything flew past my eyes just like how seconds passed by Weeks and weeks gone and only now I begin to realise it's almost towards the year end, which means, the 1st semester finals are coming sooooon.... Yet, I'm still stuck in my own world. There's difficulty to catch up especially when everything more and more burdens begin to weigh you down, plus every other thing starts crumbling down. Confidence. gone. Perseverance. gone. Faith. gone. What are the things I could fall back in when most of the things I CAN BE confident in goes topsy-turvy? There is alot of getting used to, adjusting to frequent abrupt changes in life in NUS. It can't be that bad, right? Yes. It can be. I have tonnes of things undone. I am slow. slow= much time wasted = no time for other crucial stuff ( relaxation of the mind, physical exercise etc.) Just recently, the Sg news mentioned new regarding the lack of registered pharmacist and how pharmacists are working 12 hours a day with their pay n...

Another week has passed. This week has been total frenzy, and perhaps why I'm making an excuse to spend my SUNDAY, my only free day lazying away. swt. To me, the week starts on Monday. And without you realising, it's already Friday. Going to classes EARLY in the morning, and coming back late at night seem very much like working hours. The only thing you anticipate is Friday, the end of the hectic week and you get 2 days to catch up with your own time. Yet , yesterday we had an AGM meeting which lasted for 7 hours!! Another day gone. Tired. THe next day, which is today, all you want to do is have a good REST before the cycle starts all over again until next Friday. Sad but true. I'm always anticipating my Friday nights, Saturday nights and Sunday and hopefully I will keep them free from lectures/meetings/ blabla stupiak stuff. I want time to be doing my own things. Be it my own revision, or hw etc. I just want to have time for myself. I'm pretty much worried about the th...

If there's one thing I would change... I wish I am not who I am It's a hard struggle for being who I am sometimes Yet if I am not myself, then who else can I be? I am bored, mad, and sick of myself Yet, I can't do much to change that Cos I am me, and it's up to myself So ..heck, Me vs who I want to be Who do i want to be? A better me.. swt - _-

Frustated. Bored. Wanting to do certain things yet other things do not permit me to do so. Emotionally in pain. Moments of stress spent ALONE is as terrible as hell ... While others are having fun, you're stuck on your bench. What the heck! Piss off!