Ding Dong
It's just soooo freaking challenging to force urself to study yet you don't feel like studying. It is just tooo much!!! What not to absorb so many things ONCE AGAIN. and AGAIn..each and every semesters in NUS. been thru 6 semesters..now the 7th..and it's getting....bored to go thru this cycle over and over again. The only reason that is pushing me is the thought of 'failure'. I've had many failures. And you might ask, haven't you got bored of so many failures? Yes , i am. But the after-feeling of having to fail is...just terrible. It is like a near-death experience. You feel useless and do not belong. Confidence go downhill, everything else follows. You hate yourself, and you just wanna DIE. Sigh. I just really wish to escape from this monotonous city life in Sg. I wana run away to islands..have been saying this many times and yet, i haven't really got one good good relaxing hols away from STRESS. It was during the 3 month break that was the best time fo...