unFathomable Envisagement,Imperfectly Perfect

Hip Hip Hurray!! The day has finally arrived. It's the end of " Part 1 Preceptorship Programme" How do i feel? hrm. HAPPY ? coz no need to work anymore for the next few months. phew. Yet, other things are piling up. Had to prepare for our APPS Thailand trip . Now it's left with perfecting our dance steps . 3 more days to go and we're OFF to Thailand. The others are busy preparing props for the food presentation. wonder how it will be like.heh anyway, on the final day of our preceptorship programme, we had a FUNTIME held at De Coder's Cafe, Balmoral Rd Bkt Timah. well, some ( not all) preceptors came to join us. My preceptor came. =) That place is pretty similar to Settler's Cafe. Played boardgames , food etc. etc. The bestest , most outrageous part was the forfeit part. Our group had MANY MANY forfeits. Luckily the guys in the group are willing to do most of them. haha.. there was one part where someone had to go out, get a stranger and freeze for 15second...

All in my mind now is just.. how nice if only I'm still a child, free from worries and responsibilities and evils of the world. I'm still learning to walk, read ABCs and going to kindergarten ( At least they aren't too difficult to do. I have breaktime to go play the swing, and yummy teatime again. During art lessons we play plasticine and during music time we sing songs.) ----- Childhood once lost is forever lost. THere is no turning back. It is the same for now. What you think you're going through a suffering is isn't as bad now than it will be later. Being a student, we complain. Being in the workforce, we complain. Being an elderly, we ALSO complain. When is the time we will not complain? When we're all naive and gullible in our mum's womb. ----- I am just different from the people i know. I am not like them. I can never be like them. I am eccentric and i can never change the fact that i am this way. " hoping to run away from all the responsibilitie...

I had a bad day, take it away, sing a sad song, turn it around..( Daniel Powter's song came relevant to me as always) Well, 2 more weeks until i finally end. I can't wait. Yet, time is passing by so slowly..8.5 hours a day is disastrous. I'm halfway sick but not totally sick.What do i mean? ok, today i woke up as usual..prepared for work..on my way there..( that's like 5 mins before i reach my workplace), my preceptor called and said " i'm on MC today". Oh, ok. So..this means i have to go bck..wasted 5 bucks taking bus for nothing. Then, i decided : "hrm, perhaps i can go see a doctor as i still have sorethroat and gassy stomach". ok, and hence i went to YIH UHWC. Then... Doctor happily prescribed me Trachisan Lozenges, and Omeprazole. I ask " Can i get an MC?" Doctor replied " I don't think so, you're condition is not serious. Perhaps I can give u a cheat time( err not sure if it's called that way). I'll write down...

Had a good treat from weifeng. yummy and we were bloated till we skipped dinner. sat there, ate and ate from 12 sharp till 2.25pm. Cost SGD 21 and i think it's worthwhile! you bet! anyway, 1. shark fin's soup 2. clam and oysters 3. baby octopus, prawn salad, ham, pasta, seaweed etc. 4. Unagi, unagi pizza, raw octopus, salmon, squid. 5. Bamboo 'lala' 6. Dory fish + butter 7. Black pepper lamb 8. delicious! + mocha coffee, a slice of oreo cheese cake and mango cheese cake, + longan and sea coconut as dessert. 9. Last but not least, ICE CREAM! mine in particular is lime and mango sorbet. aiyo..too full..cannot eat anymore.. Basically, didn't imagine the both of us could eat that much! After eating, went jalan jalan to help digest some of the food. long time never camwhore. lol. tried 3 bajus but never buy any despite the grand singapore sale. swt. ciao~

Finally I've the time to settle down in my room to type a few words. I've been working for 2 weeks already , and things have been very challenging. The things I do everyday is work ( 8 hours), come back to do some research, sleep, and work again the next morning. It is boring. I just couldn't imagine myself doing this in life. Sigh. There are just many types of people everywhere. The place where I work are mostly Caucasians and they are definitly the upper level class of people who know about their medications and what they are taking them for. Basically, this makes my job even tougher as i feel that what i know is also what they know. Hence, if i make a mistake, they will definitely know! Yea, have encountered 'weird' types of people, have been yelled at, and i can't imagine more to come for the next 4 weeks. It will be increasingly harder. I DON"T WANT TO WEAR MY WHITECOAT. There's just too many names and more often than not i keep mixing them up. It...

In one hour's time, I'll be sitting for my final paper. and The day has arrived. She was fine the last time I saw her. I remember she could still walk, talk and eat. Today, she can't speak, she can't eat, she can't walk. She lay supine, unable to do anything. BREATHE, is the only thing she is able to do. Yet, each breath gets harder and harder. The sound of her breathing could be heard even through the phone. She is a very extremely tough person I know. By being tough is the only way she will enable herself to live ; to give life to others ( her children) and the people around her. Despite having a bad temper and a genetically inherited stubborness which runs now in the family, she is strong-willed, determined, and ' look hard, soft inside'. She survived many years of torture nobody can imagine, yet she still able to survive them all. Until today, her time has come. She needs to rest. She doesn't deserve to endure the pain anymore...her twin suffered jus...

I am soo f****** pissed. Not with the paper I sat for today, not with anyone, but with MYSELF Everyone seems to be realllly into studying. Yes. People study. I study too. In fact, I study day, night and even in my dreams. Until I have the urge to just BURST. I get multiple headaches and still force info in and in and in. No. I don't hate studying. But i hate studying for days..non-stop. Sitting in my room, glued my butt to the chair from 9am to 12am with occasional take off time to shower, and eat ( together while studying) just getting on my nerves!. I cannot withstand the ongoing days with notes ; hardly have time for ANYTHING ELSE. It can really make me go insane. For others, they study too. But how come they don't go insane? And yet, they can MEMORISE ( yes, memorise) sooooooo freaking much without worrying that they'll forget? Why I have to read and read and read and read ( at least 5-6 rounds!!!) before I can actually UNDERSTAND and then MEMORISE?????? I just cannot d...