I am soo f****** pissed. Not with the paper I sat for today, not with anyone, but with

MYSELF

Everyone seems to be realllly into studying. Yes. People study. I study too. In fact, I study day, night and even in my dreams. Until I have the urge to just BURST. I get multiple headaches and still force info in and in and in.

No. I don't hate studying. But i hate studying for days..non-stop. Sitting in my room, glued my butt to the chair from 9am to 12am with occasional take off time to shower, and eat ( together while studying) just getting on my nerves!. I cannot withstand the ongoing days with notes ; hardly have time for ANYTHING ELSE. It can really make me go insane.

For others, they study too. But how come they don't go insane? And yet, they can MEMORISE ( yes, memorise) sooooooo freaking much without worrying that they'll forget? Why I have to read and read and read and read ( at least 5-6 rounds!!!) before I can actually UNDERSTAND and then MEMORISE??????

I just cannot deny the fact that I've screwed MIcrobiology PR2105 TOday. It is BELIEVABLE. I am no smarter than others. No matter how much I study, how much effort I put in, I will still come out as a BELOW AVERAGE student. What I understand makes sense to me, but not to other people. My views are different and they make no sense/contributions whatsoever to other people's.views. What I think is CORRECT is WRONG to others.

In a nutshell, I shall SHUT MYSELF UP AND OUT from others for as long as I THINK I AM TERRIBLY STUPID.

Shoo.

Comments

Anonymous said…
hey..chill..everyone's stress like hell believe me..well at least i do. i was really depressed before pharm prac & couldn't study as well..i was so stressed out that i was just antisocial that night before exams. *shoo sit 1 metre away from me!* not to mention wanting to knock my head against the wall for not able to recall even tho i studied the topic that came out for the exams like an hour before..both for pharm prac & microb.:( I guess everyone just remained ok-looking coz there's no point to intensify the unspoken stress & panic.last paper, jiayou!
May 3, 2008 at 3:48 AM
Anonymous said…
haha chill la..o ver ald wat..now is nth can play for 3 months.. haha gals are better in memorizing leh, boys like me suffer even more.

but no pain no gain, is like tat de la.. hahha
May 8, 2008 at 11:45 AM
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