unFathomable Envisagement,Imperfectly Perfect

The feeling of being back in Sg is NOT AT ALL PLEASING. A very distant, alien and unfamiliar feeling. It has to be this way now. Every day of the work life, in Sg, doing something I don't like doing. Anyway, it's not like I know what I like doing. And yeah. everything is last minute. I know. I have to keep telling myself that it's not my fault. None at all is my fault if i'm ever late in anything..I don't wanna feel that burden as though i'm at fault for all these last minute surge of events. Bah. I don't care. I don't want to care. Fuck.

I just came back yesterday from an 8 day trip to Taiwan. It was really an amazing trip at the right time to get away from the stresses of exams and university life. In fact, I still couldn't believe the fact that i'm a graduate and won't be going back to NUS after this.Working life will commence and everything will be different. This trip i truly enjoy because of the great company and my loved one traveling with me. It is fun traveling with a bunch of lame fellas sometimes >. Day1: we arrived at taipei about 4pm, rushed to the main station to purchase our hualien and other inter state traveling tickets, and got lost on the way to our hostel as it was situated quite a distance away from the station. However, the hostel was comfy and clean and the landlady was really nice. Nice place to stay with a good price. Just downstairs was the night market and so, we had our dinner there, eating a variety of their night market food ranging from cheese potatoes, sausages,bubbletea to...

Finals oh finals. Others who did their FYP are taking it sooo lightly. Some say finals is nothing. Some happily play FB and go out movies etc. Some say 2 papers only. Still have much time to study. Some say graduating already..the grades won't be affected that much. Don't need to study so much. Some... The list is endless.. and I'm sick of hearing those words. Cos for me, finals means maintaining grades. finals means studying as hard as I did the previous semesters. finals means my FYP. finals means the last time i'm able to live or die with my borderline grades. So, i don't care how much brains you have. I know you're smart blablabla Dean's List, Average or Above Average student with average or above average FYP grades.. just shoo off . And after all I know I don't belong in pharmacy. I will never be. Unlike the majority who have gangs and groups of close clicks. I don't And ini takdir. akurlah kepada takdir yang tidak dapat diubah betapa susahnya t...

The day of awkwardness with a tinge of laziness. The presentations are over, leaving behind just one more counseling session to screw. Weird feelings today. Mixture of anxiety, worry yet excited. Finally found a house to rent. Likeness level of the house = 8 Not sure how things will be when we move in. Not sure how the rooms will look like when everything is fully cleaned and cleared. Not sure how I could satisfy my wants for a perfect rented room + home. So far, the most stayable place i've stayed in sg is PGP. Never had MY own room until i moved to PGP. Only drawback was that there is no air conditioning and the rooms can be super hot at times like this. Even at home, I do not have a room for myself. And so.. I still dream to have my own perfect room, decorated the way i want it to be, kept clean and comfy at all times and truly mine. When will that day come?? Yea, childish it may seem...but it's just a simple need every girl desires. Her own room. I never got one. well, mayb...

I don't find fun in blogging anymore. Maybe it's because I'm too occupied with whatever that has got to do wit PHARMACY or I'm just too out of inspiration to blog. It could also be that I'm getting more of a boring person without anything interesting happening in my life.?! Whatever reason it may be, I'm like a person pushed to an edge and nothing I can do except to go around the edge, or run back to the center or fly to the ceiling. I wish I could fly to the ceiling. That, makes things more interesting. I think. I am so not in the mood to revise the uncertainty. I'll just let myself panic in the 1.5hrs tmr. At least, well, I won't physically DIE, right? It's just adrenaline/Noradrenaline. and lecturers acting as patients. And blankness in the head. And perhaps a whole lot of sarcasm in their speech. I can't be blamed for the 4 years of knowledge = don't remember a single thing during the session. Why? coz it is NORMAL. sorry, not finished. N...

Okie. my blog is nearly dead by now. >. nothing special. Had a week off school for CNY. Happily headed back home. and to me, home equals more sleeping time + play + no stress. One word. Happy =D However, time doesn't just stop there. One week has passed and I'm now back to the puny island. This hols didn't manage to meet up with most friends except my primary schoolmates. T'was a nice gathering. Seems like almost everyone I know is migrating to Aussie. I will have lots of visiting to do when i go holidaying in Australia ONE DAY. heh. Most of the one week I spent time at home. Although I still don't get to have my OWN room ( I'm still sharing a room with my sibling at this age btw), I enjoy being at home. One word = cozy. Two words= Lazy cozy. =p Other random stuff include complains about the scorching sun, extreme HOT oven-like weather, and horrid air. Had the first CA of the final semester. next one on Thursday. and more deadlines and tests the following we...

13th January. all day spent alone in my humble abode. No classes. pros: had some quiet times, though it was far too quiet. inspired myself. chatted with a good friend which filled up most of my day already. that was good feeling. Read few chapters of a book. Found a great song which had me listening for nearly 10times already. cons: had to have lunch and dinner all alone. starved but eventually being filled wit my own delicious cooking. and finally i guess..i knew i had to pamper and reward myself. Will head out to buy a slice of cake. Till then, Happy Birthday to me. =D