unFathomable Envisagement,Imperfectly Perfect

13th January. all day spent alone in my humble abode. No classes. pros: had some quiet times, though it was far too quiet. inspired myself. chatted with a good friend which filled up most of my day already. that was good feeling. Read few chapters of a book. Found a great song which had me listening for nearly 10times already. cons: had to have lunch and dinner all alone. starved but eventually being filled wit my own delicious cooking. and finally i guess..i knew i had to pamper and reward myself. Will head out to buy a slice of cake. Till then, Happy Birthday to me. =D

Ok. and so i'm sure i failed 3 in a row. How pathetic things can be ? It's only the first month of 2010 and things haven't been better. I know where I stand. I always knew. Just somehow, I tried defying them and thought i could be better, more of a confident person. But it seems like I'm wrong. Well, just to reiterate, i know where i stand. And now, i'm on the verge of FALLING sick. oh. I'm falling. ~stoned~

This year's Christmas and New Year is rather different. Different in a weird way. I didn't feel the 'mood' It felt just like any other day. The only thing different is just.. it's a holiday; no school, no books, no studies. pure slack. Yet, the next thing on my mind is the Work Life ahead. Scary. Blur. Confused. Have no idea how and if i will get a job that i will like. Brain is all wired up. Loans to pay. Graduation. Ahh feels like i'm just being reborn, and life is just beginning. Indeed..the 2nd phase of life. Career. May God Bless! After so many years, I finally have a New Year Resolution, that is: to have a job that i will like. and to have the work life + relationships go on good even if it gets bumpy once in a while. Also, wish that health will be good too.. God Bless.. xoxo

I'm back at home. Tmr I'm going bk to Sg. And then 2 days later back home again. I think I'm falling sick. I hate the weather. My nose has been running like crazy since i landed in kl 3 days ago. And now, it is sore. I can't taste what I ate, i can't smell good food. Everything is bland. Food sucks. I hope i'll get better. The post-stress thingy is traumatic. It doesn't feel like holiday. And I'm not enjoying my stuffy blocked nose that i wake to everyday. Anyway, met a friend unexpectedly bk home. Can't imagine things have changed throughout 4 years yet you felt as though it was just yesterday. I don't wanna age too fast. But u don't get to choose. All you can do is to live it the way you want it to be and not regret it. Working life will be a new beginning soon. It's time to decide. Career , future, how to balance ONE life..will be a headache when i think of it. As you grow older, you need to master the word ' responsibilities'....

Last Saturday was a tiring yet fulfilling day I miss Yan Qi and also Joshua. =p They are both from the spastic kids association. I think they have cerebral palsy. But...they are sooo adorable!!! They really deserve to hangout and have fun! And so.. We brought them to Jacob Ballas Garden for kids. whee!! Each of us was assigned to handle a kid. Mine's a timid lil girl name Yan Qi. She broke up crying initially in the bus when i first 'held' her. Her dad said she woke up feeling moody ..ah, how adorable. ha! Yeap, she teared in the bus, and kept repeating that 'daddy is gonna fetch you home' And I repeated after her many many many times...yes, 'daddy is gonna fetch you home', after we go play in the garden. ;) And so, on the way to the garden, i realised she had some problems interpreting what i had to say. Well, it was a challenge. But yet, at times she is just sooo brilliant! There was once i let her ate her box of honey stars, and was really hungry so i ask...

yikes!!! the worst 3 hours for the semester is indeed, today. Dispensing practicals. It is seriously traumatising. I screw it totally. 3 prescriptions. Gone. Patient will die after my interventions made. well maybe one will survive. It's like..rushing against time. I gave a wrong dose of inhaler to a patient. And KNOWING that it is wrong , i din bother to go intervent again after the first intervention. Cos, the first intervention has be signed by 'the doctor', and the time limit held me back. In the end, my extemporaneous preparation, which is an ointment, was made 'blindly'. I didn't even have the time to read the literature. I didn't even weigh out the correct quantity. Somehow the tablets were insufficient, time was taken to get more tablets, and yeah...i was like 'i don't care anymore'. For a moment, my mind was overloaded, and i stood there, doing nothing, traumatised. Yes, i screwed up EVERYTHING! strength was wrong. didn't complete my...

It is a blue monday. the sky is blue. the sun ain't shining as brightly as it ought to be. I'm reluctantly sitting in front of my laptop, blogging. I'm also reluctant to do anything related to studies. Every monday I have to feedback on a topic on my IT forum. OK, today's topic ain't that difficult. Then, am i supposed to update on my wiki project as well? oh, laziness... Next, I have my FedEx project to furnish up. And then, i have my social work tutorial presentation to work on..afterwhich i'm done with all these, I have to complete my Research Method evaluation of Lit to be handed up this Friday, and my social work project to be handed in next week, and panic for the Dispensing Lab session this Thursday. Next on the list is to mug for next week's Top25 Drugs again. And after this week, there's more to come.... The National University of Singapore is ranked the 30th amongst the top 200 and 4th in Asia based on the latest results of the Times Higher Ed...