unFathomable Envisagement,Imperfectly Perfect

Hormones. Blame it on the hormones? These few days I have feeling all not right, I wonder why. Had a terrible headache yesterday and I slept most of the time. Traveled to Seremban to visit grandma etc. and shivered terribly in the mall. It was horrendous. Head pounding like a bomb in the brain wanting to explode. Today, I feel cold, then another moment hot. Perhaps this is a sign of falling sick. This is no good.. There are aplenty which is troubling me now and then. Relationships, studies and the usual stuff. I still don't understand many things. Does the word 'taken for granted' apply as often in relationships? Wanting a person to care more for you in times of need yet another person tends to care even more. Is it only by every chance when I'm in need, the person is occupied with his/her own stuff? Words of comfort coming from another person is good. A friend in need is a friend indeed. Nevermind. Time tells. I have once believed in time. I will thus leave certain thi...

It is one of those emo days. For whatever reason it is, it isn't as bad as the ones in Sg. Still, the feeling is strange. You haunt me every now and then, You come and go as you like, Being submissive isn't all I want Yet, you are too tempting for me to turn around and realise you are not all that matters. I created my own fog , now that I am lost I shall await for my creation to subside, For how long , I cannot tell, I am still waiting till that day comes Tireless hopes to regain much strength and grandeur A drop of sweat can never be as inviting as a drop of tear Clashes of principles and beliefs causes self doubt I wonder how many futile attempts I have fought ~signing off,~ ~EMO~ = i shall stand alone on top of the windest, coldest mountain , during the harshes weather of all =

The Game Game rules:For those who are being tagged, you need to answer 20 questions (choose any 19 questions from the one who has tagged you, and add 1 question of your own). Send it to at least 8 bloggers and you will get all the blessing from everyone. You can't tag the one who has tagged you. - ( I don't believe in this! nevertheless it fills my boredomness) 1. What is your dream during your childhood? - To be someone succesful in life - 2. You prefer rainy day or sunny day? and why? - Neither, I love the weather in between, cloudy n windy = nice to do whatever I like be it outdoors or indoors =) - .3. What colour do you like most? -Azure blue, pearl white, black - .4. If you ever have a chance to tell 1 phrase to your loved one, what would it be? - i love you for being who you are because by being so I see who I am - 5. Which place on earth do you want to go the most? - A place where it could bring me happiness and comfort, where the weather, land , people and food are at ...

5 days away from KL. 3 days Ipoh, 2 days Cameron. It was lovely 5 days despite the tiring journey up and the journey down. Met up with the rest of the group who went to Ipoh and joined them in Cameron. The 5 days were mainly filled with eatings and eatings and travelling. Believe it or not, this was my 2nd trip up to Cameron after 21 years. The last time I went up was more than 10 years ago. Yet, the memories were still fondly felt. All I loved about Cameron was the weather. Cold, chill, and nice.... What did I do there? hrm.. - visited a few farms etc. Nothing special, the only special thing was to be able to spend time with my loved one. =) - Played cards with the group of people who stayed in a faraway village up the hill ( Not very far, but it's really deserted , to the point where it gets real freaky past 7pm) :S - Accidentally drove into the Tea Farm with a Kancil, scary narrow roads.. - Went down to the Beefarm just to go to the washroom ( and bees were happily buzzing aroun...

at allie's house in sg. It has been 2 weeks since the holidays started and one week back at home. Finally finished 60 episodes of HK drama - The Drive of Life. Many meaningful quotes and life lessons put forth in this drama. =) Nothing has happened much. It's good to meet Winie again, hang out and have a good chat. Soon I'll be meeting ChaiHoong after she's back 'honeymoon-ing' with her bf. >. I've actually blogged about many things but ish, problems with my IE and stuff, my entire post was deleted. swt. It took me off the mood to write anything further here as I've spend quite a while on the things I've wrote before it happened. Anyway, for this time, I'll just put up some pictures. cheers~joie de vivre~

Why is it that some people have certain advantage over the others in matters which you wish you are better? Why is it that some people experiencing things they don't wish to experience yet you think that such experience is worth the sacrifice? Some people may have somethings more than you have. You keep thinking ' How nice if I'm him/her..." But what you desire is only one part of the person. The ugly side you can never see, you can never feel , you will never know, because you're not him/her. Just be content, girl. Life is inperfect, so as friendships and family and studies etc. The truth is: The more you compare, the more you will suffer. The more hopes you have, the more dissapointment you'll get. Hence, BE CONTENT. ~ I may not have the bestest friends with me , here, now and then and in NUS. Yet, I still have friends. They may not play a major part in your life, but they do play one significant part : they care .~

It’s 12.16am at night. Still early. I’m about to sleep when I started thinking back about my life all these while back at home. The feeling is weird. It is something so alien I don’t understand how time passed so fast without realizing that I’m at a foreign land. What are the things I do over here? Sole purpose: STUDY. I have my own room as to compared to a shared one with my 2 other brothers. Even smaller than the one I have now. Yet, whenever I’m in my room for too long a time, I get lonely. What I have with me is a laptop, and books to study. And of course, my bed for sleeping purpose. Without them, this room is only walls and ceiling and fan and nothing else. I yearn to get a subwoofer to make my room more ‘livelier’. At least, there will be music with me at the times I need them most. While I couldn’t close my eyes for a night’s sleep tonight. I started thinking about the many things that have happened back home. The things that used to keep me company without paying much attentio...