Uneasy as always. Feeling lost like a huge void in me

 Sometimes, after so many years, I still wonder what the heck am I doing here in Singapore.

 Life is monotonous..nowhere noone to confide in..no friends no companion (female) that I can truly talk to

 Maybe it is destined that way..

 I'm still hating myself as always

 Life sucks

 Wish I have my piano now 

 Head wana burst

No direction in life..when I see everyone else living their dreams or even driving towards a goal be it more wealth or more health or whatever it is...I feel like I'm lost in time..not moving, static, hopeless

 Mad Mad me






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